Magulo Maayos, Inside or Out

I recall a conversation from years back. A friend said that when her life is messy, she wants her surrounding to be spic-and-span. She'd be O.C. cleaning her place up, etc. But me, I wanted it to reflect my inner state; I felt I didnt want to fool myself or others. Give it to me straight up! haha ... Maybe I wanted to wallow in misery at least for a while. There's profound beauty in being sad. It's in the extremes that we truly are alive; it's somewhat empty in the middle, I thought.

These days, I find myself in her shoes. Not always but it happens that I get this clarity of mind while doing chores like a maniac. While sorting my laundry, I sorted a problem. while picking up Simon's poop, I picked myself up.


But I don't do it as some "technique." I guess i'm more mature now to know that I need to function despite anything. And when entagled in confusion and uncertainty, it helps to keep one's sanity by exerting control over the controllables. Yes, like sorting laundry and picking up ... yourself. :)